Sleep-Wake-Dream-Nightmare

I work morning, all day and all evening (and into the night), then dream/torment/agonize about work all night in a bizarre state somewhere between awake and asleep. Combine that with the fitful sleep, night sweats and insomnia of menopause and you have... my life right now.

Last night I was jolted awake repeatedly by phrases like "InfoPath," "MSTP compliance," "content migration," as well as some Microsoft-specific acronyms that I probably shouldn't post here. Each item was accompanied by a sleepy mental to-do list and, to make things crazier, a very pointed and specific list of contingencies, dependencies and ramifications.

After this gets done, then I must do this. What if I can't get enough information to complete that, then -- oh-my-god -- that other thing might happen! Don't forget to request this from them and pass it on to her to get approved by him.

Carol? Wake up!

Because it's 5:30 AM and e-mail has been flowing into your in-box all night from India, where they've been working since you ended your conversation with them at midnight, and look! -- there's cool new stuff for you to work on today... and questions that need answering, action items that need attending to, and people who need to be contacted.

I am determined to continue to blog, but gone are the days when I have time to write long, thoughtful posts. And that just makes me very sad.