I read the comment at the end of your "Happiest Years" post the other day that went something like: Something's wrong and I don't know how to fix it. But then you went back and edited it out.
Forgive me for making assumptions, but you sound like a woman who is unhappy in her marriage, not necessarily with your current state of job hunting. You sound like that to me, because that used to be me. Perhaps instead of thinking something is wrong with you, look to what should be your bedrock...your marriage. Something's wrong, and you don't know how to fix it. Something's wrong and you don't know how to fix it. Something's wrong...and you don't know how to fix it. But, really, you do know how to fix it, you're just not ready to do it.
Hmmm... quite perceptive. Transitions are tough and untidy -- and you're right that they tend to creep into other areas of our lives -- career into personal, personal into career...
And sometimes, they seem to all "attack" at once. It's true that something's wrong and I don't know how to fix it. My gut says to take some time for myself, away from "this life." I don't want to leave anything -- but I do want to understand more.
I appreciate your perceptive insight and I can't help wondering who you are, what you experienced, and what you did when this "was you"? You obviously have some important wisdom. E-mail me?
It's irresponsible-ray. And really, it IS. If I find a job and solidify a start date with a few weeks to spare, that'd be a different story. We do, after all, have THREE kids starting college in September, '08...
I read the comment at the end of your "Happiest Years" post the other day that went something like: Something's wrong and I don't know how to fix it. But then you went back and edited it out.
ReplyDeleteForgive me for making assumptions, but you sound like a woman who is unhappy in her marriage, not necessarily with your current state of job hunting. You sound like that to me, because that used to be me. Perhaps instead of thinking something is wrong with you, look to what should be your bedrock...your marriage. Something's wrong, and you don't know how to fix it. Something's wrong and you don't know how to fix it. Something's wrong...and you don't know how to fix it. But, really, you do know how to fix it, you're just not ready to do it.
Hmmm... quite perceptive. Transitions are tough and untidy -- and you're right that they tend to creep into other areas of our lives -- career into personal, personal into career...
ReplyDeleteAnd sometimes, they seem to all "attack" at once. It's true that something's wrong and I don't know how to fix it. My gut says to take some time for myself, away from "this life." I don't want to leave anything -- but I do want to understand more.
I appreciate your perceptive insight and I can't help wondering who you are, what you experienced, and what you did when this "was you"? You obviously have some important wisdom. E-mail me?
Carol
I had to get out my Latin dictionery to figure out the title of your entry here... I am sure something will work out.
ReplyDeleteWhy ix-nay on the trip?
ReplyDeleteIt's irresponsible-ray. And really, it IS. If I find a job and solidify a start date with a few weeks to spare, that'd be a different story. We do, after all, have THREE kids starting college in September, '08...
ReplyDeleteCarol